I need some fresh ideas, Another website but what should I use it for. Maybe just keep it as a journal of ideas and thoughts. I have a lot of ideas but following through on them is always the problem, I need to be more focused. I am certainly not the most organised person in the world so have never been one for writing things down and setting schedules. Sometime I think I may have been cursed with a lazy mind, well cursed is a little strong. I envy the work ethic of many people I really admire. I try to replicate them but I just don’t seem to have the required concentration level. I start of well with a rush of inspiration but there is no follow up. I may just be making excuses for laziness though I’m really not sure.
I think if i could cut out things like TV and endlessly surfing the net reading various stuff and playing games then I would have a hell of a lot more time to do something worthwhile.Cutting out all those things that help me relax though is a big ask. I’m at my worst at the weekend. I know people say its a time for relaxing and not thinking about work but I feel sometimes that its too much time off as I have not come near to achieving my dreams and goals. I mean I’m not panicking or anything but when you see other people making steady progress then its easy to worry.
Maybe its a confidence thing, maybe I don’t really believe that I’m capable of coming up with a great idea and making it run. When I do think of something then all these doubts start to flood my brain and I feel drained before I even start to put anything down. Sometimes I wish I could just block out all the negative thoughts but its not easy. More and more I find myself taking the easy way out and giving up. The guilt is always there like I should be doing something more productive. Some people just look straight ahead and move towards a goal until they are there where as I seem to take all kind of pointless detours arriving hours later than everyone else.
Ive never done a IQ test so maybe I’m mentally incapable of success, ha ha, that’s a cop out of course, well back to the drawing board then. In order to get a bit fitter recently I thought it might be a good idea to combine something I have to do which is take the baby for a walk with some exercise. I bought a baby jogger online and I’m liking the results so far. There were a few choice such as the baby jogger city mini or its double equivalent the baby jogger city mini double but in the end I plumped for the baby jogger city elite which I think was a good choice. I definitely feel that I’m reaping some positive benefits so far. Here’s hoping that’s its not just a phase I give up on too soon.